bitch boy's bible™

Thursday, October 26, 2006

So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All the faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems too far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
till these rainy days that make them stay
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
Just like tihnking of your childhood home
But we cant go back, we're on our own

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

i hate pw and op and chinese A levels. chinese is the worst subject ever. period. life is amazingly boring now ok. but i don't want this year to end. its too fast. i'm not growing up. i can't imagine rushing everything over and over again next year. i'm not ready. life is so cruel sometimes huh . it takes friends and people away from you. we can't have the past back.

spent today bumming around slayer of emo scum's house doing PW. ok i wasn't doing. but there to lend my presence haha. miss stick thin(who adamantly refutes this title which has been honourably bestowed on her) was doing all the IT stuff while i just assumed sluggish contortions on the floor and on slayer of emo scum's pillowy sofa. yup and sorry bryan because i accidentally blurted out something. pls dont be angry. knowing too much gossips can be a bad thing you know. stupid me can't shut up. bad. bleargh. ohoh! and we ordered pizza hahah. fatfatfat.

oh and we basically scandalized everyone in class. haha it was weird. one particular one was so horrendous i released a scream of absolute horror. haha damn funny.

yes and its like 2.40am now because I can't sleep. well goodbye.

with that one message
I saw everything falling into place
I knew where things were heading
shielded myself with silence
and I watched it fall apart

superfiality can be so amazing
we shall see next year then.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

self denial. these lies I tell myself just serve to keep me ensconced in my little world.
sometimes I really can't figure so many things out now. maybe its my fault. my inner vulnerablility. but I shall pretend I don't know, I don't see and I don't hurt. what I don't know won't hurt me. yes. pretences, facades, veneers. they're everywhere aren't they?

you'll never guess the last thought on my mind before I sleep.

and i wish things could be the same again. until then I'll be waiting.
wishful wishful thinking.

on a blank piece of paper
i see myself sliding down a rainbow.
my own rainbow of make-belief happiness.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

ok promos are finally over. but i'm super bored. someone ask me out pls! sigh. super boring ok. only stay at home and eat and sleep and cultivate an evil oil field of blubberous blobby fats underneath my tummy. fat fat fat, not a good sight. all hail thunder thighs! ok byebye. shall go call people up and bug them to go out. ahha. which reminds me i haven't watched a movie in a long long time....

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

omg can't wait for tml. stupid maths will be over. hope the questions are doable. i really really hate graphing techniques! they suck big time. haha. anyway i can't believe the whole week is like passing so fast! thats a good thing ok cos the last time i remember what reality was like was like last week and i was telling myself....ok two days more to econs paper. and now i am magically at this point in time where i am supposed to be studying maths ahhha.

and to think just yesterday i was talking to wansees abt time travelling...hahah

and i'm so going to heck care chinese. urgh. the thought of writing zuo wen horrifies me. ew ew ew. my sentence structuring and whatever is like crap. theres like super no nice phrase or whatever anywhere in my zuo wens ok. its like some pseudo-primary school work in super big chinese characters.

oh and btw i totally uncovered juicy details about someone( or someTHING rather) i really hate/destest/abhor. and who has been featured in one of the previous posts before this. its so scandalous you'll die listening and you will squeal with such absolute sordidness due to its extreme promiscuity and revel in the ecstacy of the "oh-my-did-she-really-do-such-a-thing" shock. i can't post it here because the computer screen might just possibly just go up in flames( yes. cos she totally deserves to burn in hell forever) and so, if you, yes you, staring at the screen now, wishes to uncover this wonderful piece of tantalising gossip. pls feel free to contact me surrepticiously and i will divulge thy knowledge of this horrendous happening to your vouchsafed ear. well of course, you could, should and would obviously go around telling everyone. not spreading it will be akin to social suicide. duh.

god, i am such a bitch. oops. too bad i hate you THIS much.

Monday, October 02, 2006

omg i so freaking hate lit. i dunno anything about great ex ok. stupid. oh well. i hope tml the question is crappable. sigh really cannot wait till promos are over.

here i am 16 hours away from doing the stupid lit paper with both texts not completed. talk about double trouble....sigh. sososo dead. i think i am just going to convulse and die after lit paper tomorrow. urgh. not a nice thought. shoo shoo shoo evilevil lit paper get yourself over and done with.

oh woe betide me!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

me and my econs notes. totally married to them. so gonna divorce them after promos :)
boo! i am silly.